I wanted to be brave,

wanted the courage to maintain an open heart

so I could hold you in it always

and still give you enough space

to be.

 

I wanted to be brave,

wanted the grace that courage brings

so I could find the beauty

that I know has always been inside

of me.

 

I wanted to be brave,

wanted the courage to love without expectation

so I could find truth in my heart and yours

in a world where everyone seems afraid

to see.

 

I wanted to be brave,

but I don’t know how much longer I can take this pain.

I can feel the world around me crumble

though I’m trying to hold it together,

and I don’t know how much longer I can keep up the charade.

 

I wanted to be brave,

but perhaps I’ve lost my way,

perhaps the only way out of this maze

is to walk through the ruins

and rebuild it some day.

 

I wanted to be brave,

but perhaps it’s only fear

that keeps me here.